Why Not Me?

Hey y'all, so it's kinda been awhile since my last post (for anyone who actually takes the time to read these stupid things) but this summer is shaping up to be nothing like what I thought it would be like.  It kinda started off bad because I was applying for jobs but didn't get hired anywhere, which is super frustrating, and teaching private swim lessons part time which only brings in a limited amount of  doe and I'm worried because I do have more college to pay for. I was really bored on the weekends and mostly spent my Friday and Saturday nights at the gym because all my friends here in Allen are either on missions or stayed at college over the summer or have a significant other - so not the coolest way to spend my summer right? Haha, it's crazy to think how just one night can change all of that. 

First Date 

Just a little over a month ago, I was asked to go on a date to the Tim McGraw / Kenny Chesney concert with Matt Billings, a friend from high school who had just gotten off his mission from Brazil the previous fall.  Not going to lie to you - I was dang excited to go to the concert because I mean seriously, Kenny Chesney's voice is like pure seduction to me, but I was a little nervous going with Matt since we really hadn't talked that much within the last 2 1/2 years. But I REALLY wanted to go to that concert, so I put on my sexy cowgirl boots and just went.  Turned out the concert was exactly how I thought it would be, completely amazing, but Matt turned out to be even better than I imaged him to be.  Let's face it - two years of constant service to people you don't even know really changes and improves someone.  I mean, I had hung out with Matt before the mission but being with him 2 1/2 years later and I could really see a HUGE difference in him.  I mean, we had bonded just during the hour drive over to Cowboy's Stadium and then sang almost every song at the top of our lungs during the concert. It was a blast and I really enjoyed talking/being with Matt. I guess he thought so too because just a week later he asked me to be his girlfriend. :) Which I obviously said yes to.



Ok well that was a nice story Shanette, but what exactly do you want you want me to learn from it?  I want you to know this:  college has knocked me down flat on my butt and has had serious effects of how I viewed myself.  I was told that I would have a date every weekend at BYU but did that happen? Hell no it didn't! I use to think there was something wrong with me because no one liked me - I had little to no friends and was getting NO attention whatsoever from the guys which is totally opposite of what I expected.  It took almost a year for me to finally realize that there was absolutely NOTHING wrong with me!!!  I was just letting it get to my head and as sad and embarrassed as I am to say this, I would look at myself in the mirror each morning and ask myself "Why would a guy ever pick you?"  Sad, right?!?  I would literally ask myself "Why would a guy every choose you Shanette when they can have her?" every time I saw those annoying couples I hated so much out on the benches or grass.  I was talking to a dear friend about this shortly after I moved back home for the summer and after I told her that, she just looked at me and said, "Shanette, why NOT you?  You know who you are and where you are going.  If a guy doesn't like or want that, then he doesn't deserve you."  


Well shut me up.  Yes, she was right, why not me?  I LOVE me!  I'm pretty darn awesome and I don't need a man to prove that!  Fortunately though God has a sense of humor and  a plan for me, so when I finally did realize this he sent me the most incredible person I've ever met, who treats me how I deserve to be treated with the utmost respect and makes me feel like the sun rises each day just because I'm alive.  I love this boy so much and am so blessed to have him in my life.  Girls, if you are reading this please tell yourself each day "Why NOT me?" You are a daughter of God - never forget that!  Please don't let your happiness depend on a guy - men just aren't worth it.  I've definitely  kissed my fair share of frogs, but I think I've finally found the prince so please don't give up because I know there is a guy out there who will treat you and love you how you deserve to be.  Learn from my mistake and don't let disappointments mess with your head - you never know what is just around the corner and how amazing your summer could turn out to be.